questions you can't explain

then there you are, sitting on your bed, trying to move hell up to earth to pass your quiz this afternoon. you're already exhausted, you barely had any sleep and there you are sitting on your bed... reading and yawning

you fight the incorrigible desire to sleep for another two hours or so. you fight the flashes of memories of you and your friend, whom you had just lost. you fight the melancholy. you're doing fine, but only in the parallel world. because you are not, not even in your dreams.

you have a happy life, yes. but not today. today, the sun doesnt shine that well on you. today, coffee doesnt taste that good, the night isnt that serene.

and you fight everything off, but for how long? how long will you survive the pressure? how long will you survive the longing for a better day, for a better time with your girlfriend? how long will you survive a seemingly endless search for a lost friendship, for the long gone memories?

how long will you survive the unbearable melancholy?

snap......

you wake up, and find your book on your lap... then you ask

is it a new day already?