failures

when i was in grade 2, i almost came close in becoming the class' top student. but i fell short. i dont know what caused me that top one post, but i think it was my awful multplication that time that caused the damage.
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when i was in grade 5, i lost a quiz bee competition in history (quiz bee competitions are big deal to me then) since history is my favorite subject, i felt so betrayed by the singlemost subject that i have grown to love. and the question that i failed to answer was "who was the legendary indian leader who fought for freedom against the oppressor of the incas?" darn you geronimo!
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when i was in high school, i wanted to be part of "young achievers" that was our high school newspaper. although it only released two issues in my entire stay in high school, i always looked up to those whose write ups were published in that paper. but i failed because i came in late for the scheduled qualifying exams. i still can remember what mrs. bantigue told me then. " son, in journalism, deadline is deadline. if in this test you came in late then you have a problem with punctuality."
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when i was in third year high school, i failed to grab the S1 position. i have dreamt of that post for three years that i was burning my ass under that darn sun. but i failed to. i never showed my disappointment among my peers for i have toshow strength and grace. the person they appointed as S1 was one of SJC's brainy student. i guess they wanted someone good for the postion, that's why... but was i not good enough?
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the night before my final exams on physics, i received a letter from UST. i was so elated when i got hold of that letter. i love UST so much. i have grown to covet that school. i have pratically pre-planned my entire 4 year stay in college at UST. but i was shattered to see that i did not manage to get in.days before graduation, my batcmates were already excited for college. i was not. why? i still didnt have a school to go to then
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my entire stay at my first school in college was a big disappointment. need not to ellaborate more on it. basta got my self confidence way too low when i was in that school.
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UST again slammed the door on me. and this time, it slammed the door really hard.. "no transfer policy kami."
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in my new school, a "most reverend" priest-dean ruinned my life. "we cannot accept your payment because it is way too late. we will be forced to nullify the units you have took this semester."

yes father, bless your soul