today is march 19, 2005

ah, the day i have been waiting for since i stepped into college. this could have been one of my happiest days. today is march 19, 2005. doesnt ring a bell? well apparently, today is the day i am supposed to graduate.

but im not...

a lot of people are telling me to get over it and that i will have my time.. yeah yeah... i will, and tomorrow i will be fine... but today i will just let the hurt sink in one by one by one and sulk.

yes, indeed it is not the end of it. indeed intellect is not measured on the number of awards you get or number of years you spend in college. but life really sucks. and i do not need to go around the house to see were the chicken shit stinks.

i should be marching later this afternoon at our grandstand. instead, ill be at NAIA. i will fetch my mom. its ironic for her to come home in time for my supposed graduation, but i will not be in beda's red toga.

i told her not to come home yet for she cannot expect me graduate this summer. but she insisted to. she knew im weak and she knew i cant accept it all. she knew she has to be with me today. she knew she has to dry these tears i have on my cheeks while typing this.

today i will sulk.. but tomorrow is a different story...

and i will wait till they'll call BANGI, Ray John y Eleazar... it must that sweet..someday ill be there