the angry me

ah here i go again, after an hour since my last post eto at naka-upo nanaman sa tapat ng computer...

i sat at the quad just a while ago. i was browsing my red notes for my exams on law on sales later at 1, but all i got is a bucket of tears. i think it is time for me to pick up the pieces of this shattered existence. i guess i outdid my growth untill i no longer know who i have become.

its time to make life simple for me. i will give up my plans in becoming the next editor-in-chief of our school publication.i will have to stop my romance with politics. i have to become apathetic. just for once. try to stand in the other side of nation building together with those who dont care and dont give a damn at all in this Gos forsaken country. (its youth is corrupt anyway, so im starting to lose my nationalistic stands)

involving myself in these nationalistic and patriotic blah blah blahs make me happy and satisfied. but i guess the buck stops here. i have to think about myself first. i have to think about my brother first. i have to think about the high expectations my parents have on me first.

this is farewell to my endeavors. this is farewell to aksyon kabataan, farewell to walang ku-corrupt movement, farewell to fair trade alliance youth, farewell to the bedan...

i will be back, but becoming a leader is becoming the person of integrity and stability. i have to regain that. i have to fight these people who are trying to tarnish the good name i have established inside the bedan society. i have to fight the people who are ruining my life. they have just unleashed the angry me. the angry me who stops at nothing just to let loose its wrath. the angry me whom i myself fear of. the angry me.. and they shall see... and i will be back.. i will lead again.

this is a declaration of war... they shall see the angry me...