today is march 18, 2005

closing time, open all your doors and let you out in to the world...

today is march 18, 2005, friday. today is march 18, 2005, it is shaq vs kobe for the second time at solar sports. today is march 18, 2005, six days before the birthday of my fave cuz. today is march 18, 2005, my supposed baccalaureate mass. and i am sitting in front of this rented computer, trying to subdue all the shity thoughts of this cruel society. today is my supposed baccalaureate mass and tomorrow is where i will be left behind.

what a cruel existence this is. i feel stupid for not graduating this year. i have come to the point in my life where i know i know a lot. but the thoughts of stupidity beyond irreparable bounds keep on coming. bummer...

i was invited by my pears to come over at "our" graduation. but i just cant take the picture of them in their toga and me in my jeans and jagged up shirt.. i guess i have to face the music and dance its tune for i will be left for another year..

today is march 18, 2005 and tonight, i will be half drunk and half sedated

life's gotta always be messing with me. cant they chill and let me be free? cant i take away all this pain? i tried every night all in vain...