someone out there
i hope you do take care of one person you have been having since time immemorial. i do not want the two of you to be apart, i do not want her to lose you. if ever she does, i will not be held responsible for it, for i never wanted it.
c'mon, you're already making it hard for her and you have no idea how much it sucks already. do not subject her to this, do not be sellfish. stop thinking about yourself and start thinking about her. as someone had said, not everything is about you and everything is for you.
it is not fun anymore and there are times that she just surrenders to the pressures, to the sadness, to the hassle that you have been causing.
you should not hate me. you should not be jealous. for it is i who keep on telling her that all things will be very well between the two of you. it is i who say not to lose you. it is i who say that she'd fight for it and keep you. I am not asking for appreciation, or gratitude. just don’t hate me.
take care of her, she does not want to lose you as well....
posted by ray john @ 2:10 PM
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when you throw a stone into the air it must come down.
you see i am not waging war here, but i really do not know what precipitated you to react on this.
this is my space and i can write anything that i want in this space. this is my outlet so whatever i feel, i write it here. you have no right to tell me what should i feel and what should i not.
lets not stoop on ignorance here, we are both aware of what we are talking about, though none was specified. yes, it is not my business, and i have kept my finger from dipping on your affair. did intervene?
you want privacy with regards to your affair. i have not invaded it. i hope you understand that this is my affair with myself. and as long as i have never dropped any name in this page, no one should fret because this is my outlet.
you're right i am only talking in my behalf. i dont know you. but i am writing based on what i feel and based on what i perceive. if i offended you, then i humble myself and i ask for your forgiveness. but you should ask yourself as well, have you not prejudged me in the process? have you not hurled me with hurtful comments? say what you feel and what you think, even uf such are baseless and unreal - that is your right. and i believe that i too am clothed with such right dont you think?
think about it. what goes around, comes around.
hope to be in good terms with you for i mean no harm. and yeah, i am beginning to understand you. i already know why... i guess
Ok, let me take things one by one now.
First..
“when you throw a stone into the air it must come down.”
Did the stone hit the ground? No, because I was on the moon when I threw it. Ha ha.
On with the business already..
“you see i am not waging war here, but i really do not know what precipitated you to react on this.”
So am I not. I was just explaining my side. Also, you posted the message on a page that is available on the world wide web (which is a public domain) so I guess I can react on it if I want to especially since I know that it is I whom you are referring to. Or am I prohibited from posting a comment here? Just let me know. Anyway, I found your message too biased that was why I felt like I had to explain my side.
Ok, next..
“this is my space and i can write anything that i want in this space. this is my outlet so whatever i feel, i write it here. you have no right to tell me what should i feel and what should i not.”
First and foremost, I did say on my comment that I respect your freedom of expression and that I acknowledge the fact that this is your space, did I not? Also, I would like to make it clear that I am not against the idea of you writing about that issue on this blog of yours Now.. now… you were the first one who said those “you should not” things. No, I’m not fighting back. You see what I actually said does not have anything to do with the way you feel. I just expressed my irritation with you actually saying those “you should not” things. To be exact I actually said “please don’t SAY these…” I did not say that you should not FEEL blah blah blah. As far as I can remember it was you who said something like that by saying “you should not hate me” and “you should not be jealous”. Now, don’t you think it is I who should ask for some respect regarding my right to feel what I really feel (if ever those were my real feelings)?
Next..
“lets not stoop on ignorance here, we are both aware of what we are talking about, though none was specified. yes, it is not my business, and i have kept my finger from dipping on your affair. did intervene?”
You actually specified some already with your first post about this and about those “you should not” things on the second one, remember? Anyway, as I have said I think you actually did intervene somehow since you thought that I was not taking good care of my relationship with her. Again, it is my business already and not yours.
Ah, this…
“you want privacy with regards to your affair. i have not invaded it. i hope you understand that this is my affair with myself. and as long as i have never dropped any name in this page, no one should fret because this is my outlet.”
I have already pointed out my stand on this. Ok, this is your space and you have the freedom to write whatever you feel like writing in here and I do know and respect that. Now, I don’t quite agree with the idea that this is just an affair with yourself. It is given already that yeah this is your space and “this is your way of letting the shit out of you” but although you did not specify any names or my name for that matter, I was able to know and feel that it was I whom you were referring to. Now, since your page is open for the world to see (which includes me), you should know that it then becomes not just a personal affair but a public one too. Since you published it on a web page, it then becomes public though yeah it is a personal matter. Now, since I was able to identify myself as the character that you were talking about in your “story” then I guess it is just fair to say that it becomes my affair too. Now, in what way? Since I don’t agree with what you think of me which you published in a public domain then I think I have a right to “defend” myself, right? Yeah, people do not know (and may not know) who the hell that “someone out there” is but the issue comes to me in a personal level since I knew that it was me. You see it is a personal affair if and only if you were the only one who is able to see, know, and understand it (i.e. it is not published or if you just thought of it). Obviously this is not the case here.
Ok, enough for that…
“you're right i am only talking in my behalf. i dont know you. but i am writing based on what i feel and based on what i perceive. if i offended you, then i humble myself and i ask for your forgiveness..”
I am also just writing here what I feel and if I hurt you with my comments then I am sorry. I am just being honest and I don’t want to be such a hypocrite.
“.. but you should ask yourself as well, have you not prejudged me in the process? have you not hurled me with hurtful comments? say what you feel and what you think, even uf such are baseless and unreal - that is your right. and i believe that i too am clothed with such right dont you think?”
Hmmm.. what process? By commenting here? I don’t know… did I? If I did, again I am sorry for I did not know. Yes, I did not say that I am the only one who has the right to say what I feel. You have that right too (I have repeated this so many times already).
“hope to be in good terms with you for i mean no harm. and yeah, i a
Ok, let me take things one by one now.
First..
“when you throw a stone into the air it must come down.”
Did the stone hit the ground? No, because I was on the moon when I threw it. Ha ha.
On with the business already..
“you see i am not waging war here, but i really do not know what precipitated you to react on this.”
So am I not. I was just explaining my side. Also, you posted the message on a page that is available on the world wide web (which is a public domain) so I guess I can react on it if I want to especially since I know that it is I whom you are referring to. Or am I prohibited from posting a comment here? Just let me know. Anyway, I found your message too biased that was why I felt like I had to explain my side.
Ok, next..
“this is my space and i can write anything that i want in this space. this is my outlet so whatever i feel, i write it here. you have no right to tell me what should i feel and what should i not.”
First and foremost, I did say on my comment that I respect your freedom of expression and that I acknowledge the fact that this is your space, did I not? Also, I would like to make it clear that I am not against the idea of you writing about that issue on this blog of yours Now.. now… you were the first one who said those “you should not” things. No, I’m not fighting back. You see what I actually said does not have anything to do with the way you feel. I just expressed my irritation with you actually saying those “you should not” things. To be exact I actually said “please don’t SAY these…” I did not say that you should not FEEL blah blah blah. As far as I can remember it was you who said something like that by saying “you should not hate me” and “you should not be jealous”. Now, don’t you think it is I who should ask for some respect regarding my right to feel what I really feel (if ever those were my real feelings)?
Next..
“lets not stoop on ignorance here, we are both aware of what we are talking about, though none was specified. yes, it is not my business, and i have kept my finger from dipping on your affair. did intervene?”
You actually specified some already with your first post about this and about those “you should not” things on the second one, remember? Anyway, as I have said I think you actually did intervene somehow since you thought that I was not taking good care of my relationship with her. Again, it is my business already and not yours.
Ah, this…
“you want privacy with regards to your affair. i have not invaded it. i hope you understand that this is my affair with myself. and as long as i have never dropped any name in this page, no one should fret because this is my outlet.”
I have already pointed out my stand on this. Ok, this is your space and you have the freedom to write whatever you feel like writing in here and I do know and respect that. Now, I don’t quite agree with the idea that this is just an affair with yourself. It is given already that yeah this is your space and “this is your way of letting the shit out of you” but although you did not specify any names or my name for that matter, I was able to know and feel that it was I whom you were referring to. Now, since your page is open for the world to see (which includes me), you should know that it then becomes not just a personal affair but a public one too. Since you published it on a web page, it then becomes public though yeah it is a personal matter. Now, since I was able to identify myself as the character that you were talking about in your “story” then I guess it is just fair to say that it becomes my affair too. Now, in what way? Since I don’t agree with what you think of me which you published in a public domain then I think I have a right to “defend” myself, right? Yeah, people do not know (and may not know) who the hell that “someone out there” is but the issue comes to me in a personal level since I knew that it was me. You see it is a personal affair if and only if you were the only one who is able to see, know, and understand it (i.e. it is not published or if you just thought of it). Obviously this is not the case here.
Ok, enough for that…
“you're right i am only talking in my behalf. i dont know you. but i am writing based on what i feel and based on what i perceive. if i offended you, then i humble myself and i ask for your forgiveness..”
I am also just writing here what I feel and if I hurt you with my comments then I am sorry. I am just being honest and I don’t want to be such a hypocrite.
“.. but you should ask yourself as well, have you not prejudged me in the process? have you not hurled me with hurtful comments? say what you feel and what you think, even uf such are baseless and unreal - that is your right. and i believe that i too am clothed with such right dont you think?”
Hmmm.. what process? By commenting here? I don’t know… did I? If I did, again I am sorry for I did not know. Yes, I did not say that I am the only one who has the right to say what I feel. You have that right too (I have repeated this so many times already).
“hope to be in good terms with you for i mean no harm. and yeah, i am beginning to understand you. i already know why... i guess ”
Believe it or not, I am hoping for that too. Huh, you know why? I don’t know.. it is quite vague.
Hmmm…
“think about it. what goes around, comes around.”
Are you sure that this always happen? I don’t think so.
Last words..
I guess I should stop here for I have taken so much space already. There are still some matters that I would like to clear but which would be better done personally.
Sorry for the error in posting.. don't know why it came out like that. Tech prob, I guess.
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jesus christ walking on green earth. you have a hell of an ego to defend.
you see, i do not have to fight you. i will hold my horse off. no not because i am backing down for you. i am backing down for her. she loves you and i respect that fact. that is why im gonna stop right here.
you see, when you met me years earlier then i would have gone ballistic over this. ask my ex if you may. but i will not for i have changed and that i respect her. i do not want her to feel bad that i have rubbed more salt on this. on you.
actually i have written a very long reply (indicative of me being my mother's son) but i never posted it. instead, i saved it on my draft. like i said, i respect her that is why i did not. and hey, this is more gentlemanly than to further this verbal tussle.
leme just react on some if i may.
i wonder that you have reacted on practically everything that i have written on my reply. except for a teeny weenie line which i quote:
"you should ask yourself as well, have you not prejudged me in the process? have you not hurled me with hurtful comments?"
why? you have never read it? or you have nothing to say about it since i got you big time on that?
you see i know, even if she doesnt talk about it. i know. i cant make chicken salad out of chicken shit so i guess i will never play your game. sigh.
and oh, one piece of simple advice, this is my space so beware because i might write something that you will never like at all. dont worry, i have not and i will not drop your name for the whole world to know. (in fact my friends, who frequent this page, do not know that you exist. not until you have showed yourself in the open.. errrr not open. whatever)
now, if you do not want to get hurt or irritated or something, then refrain from opening this page. its as simple as that. if you do, then come at your own risk.
but hey, im only human. i cannot hold my horse off longer than Ghandi. so i suggest you burry the hatchet.
I thought that the last comment I posted here would be my last post but, man I was wrong.
Ok, now. Here we go again..
“jesus christ walking on green earth. you have a hell of an ego to defend.”
~ Yes, I have an ego.. do you not have one? Then you are not human. Further, it is my right to defend it whenever I feel like I have to (I don’t care if you would brand me as an egoistic shit by doing such). Anyway…
“you see, i do not have to fight you. i will hold my horse off. no not because i am backing down for you. i am backing down for her. she loves you and i respect that fact. that is why im gonna stop right here.”
~Oh, I don’t have to too. You call this a fight? Oh, man… this ain’t war yet… for me.
“you see, when you met me years earlier then i would have gone ballistic over this. ask my ex if you may. but i will not for i have changed and that i respect her. i do not want her to feel bad that i have rubbed more salt on this. on you.”
~Why should I bother to ask your ex? In the first place I don’t care how you were then. Ah, ya.. you have changed alright. Are you not bored? Ha ha.
“actually i have written a very long reply (indicative of me being my mother's son) but i never posted it. instead, i saved it on my draft. like i said, i respect her that is why i did not. and hey, this is more gentlemanly than to further this verbal tussle.”
~Ya, you’re a mama’s boy.. alright. Well, Mr. Bangi.. I do not need your chivalry. But yes.. it is so nice of you. Don’t worry, I’ll tell her that.
“i wonder that you have reacted on practically everything that i have written on my reply. except for a teeny weenie line which i quote:
"you should ask yourself as well, have you not prejudged me in the process? have you not hurled me with hurtful comments?
why? you have never read it? or you have nothing to say about it since i got you big time on that?”
~Actually, I did react on that by saying “Hmmm.. what process? By commenting here? I don’t know… did I? If I did, again I am sorry for I did not know.” Ok, so I guess it was not that clear. So maybe you were referring to my perception of you right from the start, is that it? Well, yes… I am aware of my own biases but I can’t do anything about it. There are just some things that no matter how hard you fathom why they are like that, the answer just seems not kind enough to show its serene face on you. Anyway…
“you see i know, even if she doesnt talk about it. i know. i cant make chicken salad out of chicken shit so i guess i will never play your game. sigh.”
~Are you sure you won’t? But you’re already doing it.
“and oh, one piece of simple advice, this is my space so beware because i might write something that you will never like at all. dont worry, i have not and i will not drop your name for the whole world to know. (in fact my friends, who frequent this page, do not know that you exist. not until you have showed yourself in the open.. errrr not open. whatever)”
~Hey, hey.. I do not care what the hell you write here. I already made it clear, did I not? Whew… should that scare me? Anyway, why don’t you do it? I won’t mind, really. Not that I like it but since this is your space then you do whatever it is you want to. Now, that would be a great journalistic act, don’t you think?
“now, if you do not want to get hurt or irritated or something, then refrain from opening this page. its as simple as that. if you do, then come at your own risk.”
~Now, I’m really scared… whew. Ok, now… let me just explain why I opened this page of yours that led me to finding that post. Ok, I was checking your page for a reason, which if you are really a sensible person then you should know it by now. Wait, I will do what I want to do so you don’t have to tell me that. Don’t worry, this is going to be the last one that you will be read from me. Now, doesn’t that give you comfort or what?
“but hey, im only human. i cannot hold my horse off longer than Ghandi. so i suggest you burry the hatchet.”
~I am human too that is why I reacted in the first place. Hey, why don’t you let your horse off? Let me see what it is really made of. Oh, but it is such a shame… I might not have enough curiosity to watch it anymore. Ah, quite a shame too… I don’t really have a hatchet in the first place. Did you not see?
Ok, enough now. She might not like this at all I know and besides I think I have already made clear my point so I should stop here.
ay pikon. im not even warming up yet. im not even close at playing your game yet. intimidated? oh ho ho ho. but dont you worry, this is what i am made of now. i do not have to do this why? three things:
1. she told me to stop.
2. i have got a lot of class in my body. too much that i cannot stoop down to this level of nonsense.
3. why should i? i have a happy life, i have got all that i need, and yes, i have a great girlfriend. dont you just love it? i do.
mama's boy? oh yes i am! and i am so damn proud of it. ive got the best mom you know. ashamed? nah, im not... hehehehehehehe
oh pity you, you just cant tick me off dont you.
hhhhhmmmmmm. bored? nah. actually im loving it. im loving doing this as well. but as i have said, its all about what she said and the class. me doing this nonsense, yucht...
you not opening this page a confort for me? nah. you're not even a discomfort. yours is the case of "ah talaga? she exist pala?" ohhh im sorry thats a bit rude.
you dont have a hatchet? bwahahahahahahahahaha you are making me laugh, really. at first i thought you have a poor humour. i was wrong. never thought that you being real can be this..... nah......
you stopping? bwahahahahahahaha nyehehehehehehe you make me laugh even more.. awwww sad that this is to end now even before i could train my jackass mouth on you..
oh yes, she aint gonna like this indeed.ok since i think you will still open this page (are you a budding fan of mine? lemme know, i can sign an autograph for you) everything that i will write here are literature. my literature, no matter how poorly they were written. now if you happen to read something that has semblance to your case or whatever think of it this way. i have much more good things going in my life that i cannot afford to waste my time writing about...... never mind
hey marge and glo, im making progress righ? i can really stop myself from lambasting someone. we should drink to this...
peace out
hey, im sorry. you might open this and see how far low i have gone. i can still be provoked you know. promise this would be the last. see you on saturday
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