picture of an abandoned student

i woke up in the other side of the bed this morning. i stood up and felt dizzy for the very minimal hours of sleep i had last night. i sat at the dining table and got dismayed to have seen the same food for the past four breakfast meals - sunny side up and lumpia.

i went out for school too early thinking that i can have my time this morning to prepare what i have to prepare. but when i got to the lrt station at cubao suddenly the station was closed down due to "technical failure" of one of the trains plying the route. so i took the shuttle ride from cubao to legarda for an hour, which ordinarily takes me 20 minutes, had the train functioned properly.

when i was on my way out of SM manila after paying my bill at a wireless center, someone broke me the news - Raul Roco is dead.

it could not be, i thought. he is my mentor and i have grown to idolize and adore him that i even helped him to the best of ability in the last election. it could not be, i thought, because he still has a lot of things to do, has a lot of people to touch and a lot of youth to mold.

it could not be.. but it has, he has departed.

he has abandoned me and my fellow youth in our party. he has abandoned the people who still believe that he is the hope of this nation. he has abandoned the youth, who are yearning for guidance, for empowerment. but all things have to pass and this is his time.

i have to accept it and i have to live tomorrow with his death in tow...

i will be ok... but for now let me mourn for the death of my mentor