it is frustrating. its either i am faced with the reality that i really do not know h0ow to write or the reality that i no longer know how to write. which is which? either, or, i would not like the implication.

somehow i am missing the kind of style that i used to have when i was still sriting for the papers, but at the back oof my mind, i need a change. i am caught with two choices that infringe my capacity to rationaly pick whichever plays for me better.

i feel like a solitary bore with my old style, it (my old style) was so passe. however, i cannot seem to get the grasp of a new one. i am stuck in the middle of things right now. i am short of the "development stage" in my writing and i am too far to use the old one.