one decade of shitting together

i am missing my bestfriend so much. i lost her because she went to glendale and then one thing led to another till i no longer know where to look for her and worst, i no longer know how to make her talk to me again. this is hard i must say, but it is harder because it made me misss out some of the people that i still have.

in my previous post regarding chielot, my bestfriend, i wrote there that i miss her. days after, marge commented: "tol ako ba ito."

bam! dogshit!

what am i doing in my own corner sulking for the lost whereas i still have people with me. people who shared valuable moments with me. (uuullllkkkkk, am i sounding gay already?shit!)

anyway, i should stop crying over something who's no longer mine. chielot decided to be on her own and i have to respect that.

i am letting her go. there are so many things in this friggin existence to thank for that i cant spend a lot of my time sulking over something which has already become a thing in the past.

i am still hoping that somehow chielot will be back. but if she wont then id thank her for the moments i had with her. i am moving on. and this time i can see clearly the people that I can sit and shit with and still laugh at the moment.

thanks marge. i do not know the exact date, but i can remember that it was in june of 1995 when you stepped in the class. that was the beginning of this.

and it has been a decade since...