just about time

i have tried containing myself from writing about this because this is between her and me and yeah, anything close to this topic will give people the creeps. but hey, the hell other people care, this is my space.

i was in nueva ecija yesterday to be with my girlfriend. for one moment, i tried recalling all of the shity things i have done, especially to my ex. i guess, for one moment, i never thought that i could be good to anyone. but not this time.

yeah, i have gone astray for quite a while, but that ended the same day i stopped denying her presence. i was apprehensive i must admit. i do not know who had the problem, but i never was able to please anyone. but not this time.

i guess, i just changed a lot and i see things in a very different perspective now. for one i am overwhelmed by guilt that not much had experienced this better me in the past and that i changed too late for my ex. but the hell, no one made to. i am just so happy that i changed in time for the best in this friggin existence - daisy sebastian.

she is my shot of sanity.

and yes, forty seven months to go... i will get there