losing my faith

three years in the publication, one year as the EIC. if i may evaluate how much i have made a difference in the society of Bedans, i will only give a blank dumbfounded face. to say freeing the people from ignorance is noble; to achieve it is hard; to give from it is being real; and to continue believing makes the fall a lil bit harder. often do i think that ignorance maybe really is a bliss. but i cannot discount the things i continue to adhere on. indeed my political was correct, "to achieve reforms, one must reform thy self into becoming the person who will not succumb into helplessness".

now i ask myself, am i that a failure that i do not think that i scattered the seeds well enough? or are my fellow dreamers are just so deaf to hear the hungry mouth and so blind to see the glaring reality?

maybe, ignorance is really a bliss