Where the corner of my mind was

(This is a sequel to the piece I have written for Spires 45 "in the corner of my mind)

Hi, how are you? Still doing fine in your new found school? I wonder how you are taking the adjustments with your new environment. I have heard that you’re taking it like hell. Teka, was that the one you always wanted huh? Be in the all elite school. You should be happy!

So, kumusta na kayo ng boyfriend mo? Still going strong and steady? I guess you’re really trying to prove me that I was wrong when that I told you that: “and manok na nakatali, madaling mahuli.”

Remember the last time we saw each other? I was sitting at the bench at our school, trying to take a break from everything that sucked that moment. Everything was going well though I was being swarmed by sadness. Until you came from behind and sat beside me. Gees, you should have felt the way my mood changed that day. It was a mix emotion. There you were, my love of my life, sitting beside me, smiling. Uuuhhmmmm, leme guess, you were smiling because your boyfriend dropped you at school that day? Or maybe, you were smiling and happy to have seen me – your boy toy. Aaarrrrgggggghhhh.

But you know what, after we parted that day, after you have ran back to were I was sitting just to say the you were missing me a lot, I cried. Much of the anger that I was keeping was overwhelmed by the pain you have caused me. I did not know what to do that day. I wanted to go after you and stop you from leaving for I knew that that was the last, but I could not. I do not want to go after you again while you go after him. I do not want to look at my back again and see that no one is going after me. So I sat there, I watched you go off my sight until even my peripheral vision could no longer catch a glimpse of you. I knew that was the last. Painful? yes. My eyes were blurred by my tears you know.

I said to myself that that was the last time I’m gonna cry over a loved that was unrequited. That was the last time that I’m gonna feel sorry for myself that I have never seen that you were only playing around while you and your boyfriend have a big fight. I used to think that I have moved on only in the corner of my mind. Yes, that was true.

But such is not the case already. In fact I am happy that you have not loved me at all. I am happy that the moments we have spent together were meant to take the hassles of your big fight with your boyfriend off you.

I am happy now! I have met the girl you said that I would soon meet. I have met the girl that you said is worthy of me. I have met the girl that you said I would love more than the way I loved you. You were right, such girl exists, and her name is Daiisy.

Yes, I have done a lot of stupid things for you. I have jeopardized my accounting education for you. I took every bit of humiliation from my friends for you. But you were really never worthy of it all. And now I find myself so damn inlove over someone I have met months after I have said to myself that I am letting go of you. Thank God I did! Had I burdened myself by sulking over something and someone which was never mine, I could have failed to notice that the woman I want to spend most of my time with was already sitting meters from where I was drinking a glass of rum.

I love her more than I have loved you. I wanted her more than I have wanted you, and I envision a life with her in four years. Something that I failed to see from you. And I am writing this to let you know you were correct when you said that someday I will love someone so much that I genuinely would not want to let go anymore. That somebody has come.