early-morning-post-somnabulism-musing

for days since the results of the october 2006 board examinations came out, i have been feeling a lil bit sick about not passing it the last time i took it. i am happy fo rthose who passed the board because i know how it takes to get there and how much one has to exert to live with the pressure of expectations by the school, the family and your own expectation for a better result. however, i cannot help not to envy them because i too wanted to experience how it feels like being congratulated for a job well done. i have told myself, even before i graduated in college, that i will never practice my accountancy profession because i am fit for other tasks, but i never said that i did not want to pass the board exams. those are two different endeavors, the former being based on practicality and sense of worthwhile activity, the latter being purely based on pride and ego. i guess my friend is correct when she told that moving does not end until the what if is answered and the unfinished business is done.

but when i woke up this morning after surfing the net last night i had a reaffirmation that the board exams is not the only venue where i can prove myself worth. indeed i never really loved the profession and i refuse to be deifined by that two-week long exam. i am good in law, i know i am. this time around i can say that what i am doing is fulfilling and that i no longer feel being dug deep in boredom. law - this is where i am going to prove myself worthy of being congratulated.